living on the perimeter

My monday definitely sent me for a loop today.  Quite out of nowhere, I was faced with a landslide of negativity.  It was a surprise mainly because of who it was coming from.

I understand that people have bad days...however when we spew negativity around a room like a mad-man yielding a machine gun...there are many casualties.

I had to be honest with myself.  I had to really do some thinking that night about why I didn't say more to try to curtail this negative onslaught of bullets as they flew threw the air.  Why did I just sit there with my mouth gaping open?  Why didn't I stand up? Speak out?

Then I had to be honest with myself and acknowledge the fact that I was a coward that day.  However uncomfortable it was for me to witness this barrage, it woud have been MORE uncomfortable to speak out.  And, because of that not only did I suffer, but I allowed the negative words to rule my day, color my mood, and define my moment.

Even after apologies were delivered from the negative swordsman later that day, it was still a loss.  Not because someone chose to act out in such a manner - but because I retreated back to my comfort zone...intending to protect myself...but ultimately just avoiding what I should have done.

So, I chalk this day up to a manic monday that could have, and should have been avoided.  I vow that next time I meet such an adversary, I meet it head on, with grace and love.

For negative begets negative, and positive (however unwanted at the time by someone who just wants to vent) will in the long run be welcomed and appreciated.